Throw out Guilt... Bye!!!

From the mud blooms a beautiful lotus flower....

 I chose to no  longer carry guilt for my past mistakes, after practicing acts of self-love, for anything and everything I choose to guilt myself for; and for absolutely no good reason.  It’s time to let that shit go! Byeee guilt!!  I don’t have time for you anymore. 

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Today is day 28 of 28 days to Bliss!! As I was preparing what to write I found myself Criticizing myself. Saying oh I should’ve done this, I could’ve done more of this, I wish I had more time to do this… And I realized that this throw out Thursday, the only thing I need to throw out is GUILT!!!!


Guilt is toxic to your body and did you also know it affects your kidney health?  Yes our physical emotions, Do effect our physical well-being.


i’ve noticed a lot throughout the years that  I carry excess and irrational guilt. I feel guilty for going to a yoga class and leaving my baby, I feel guilty for pampering myself, I feel guilty for signing up for a workshop to better myself, I feel guilty for the mistakes I’ve made in the past....And I realize that this guilt goes deep. It’s beyond just my own perception. I believe it stems from an ancestral and cellular belief of unworthiness which has turned into a deep-rooted feeling of guilt.  I notice similar patterns in close relatives.

So today I choose to actively focus on freeing myself from guilt. So that I might free the women that came before me, that for some reason carry this belief that they are not worthy, that they have the need to feel guilty for mistakes, or treating themselves, for learning and having experiences maybe not as they desired.

After all, a lotus flower grows out of the mud… Whatever mud we have been through, may it turn us into a beautiful  flower. And for that I cannot and will not carry guilt anymore.

Wellness Wednesday!! Blueberries and ATP!!

Let’s talk about Blue-berr-ies....!!! 

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 All 100 trillion of your cells require ATP I didn’t seen triphosphate for energy. Do you know how your cells achievesq that?    Cellular ATP is accomplished by a fructose or glucose chain  attaching to  oxygen. Once this combination happens, ATP is formed and the cell is thriving and full of energy. A cell that is  lacking ATP  meaning it does not have proper amounts of oxygen and carbon present… Allows the cell to become weekend and sauce be susceptible to damage. When a cell is in a weakened state it creates an environment where the cell can be bonded to buy parasites, antigens, viruses or pathogen‘s. This is how disease, cancer and fungal issues are able to take place in the human body. Here’s another homemade Mila and Carrie special..! (Where I explain all this ATP stuff.).

And here are the benefits on Blueberries!!

Deliver healthy antioxidants. ...

Help with digestion. ...

Improve skin health. ...

Promote healthy bones. ...

Support healthy blood pressure. ...

Boost brain functioning. ...

Help protect against heart disease and cancer.


Treat yourself to some delightful blueberries today!! Happy wellness Wednesday!!

Tidy Tuesday!! Day 26 of 28days to Bliss!!

My main living space. Light, clean and simple. 

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 I love keeping this room really simple and very clean. It’s my favorite place to meditate, take a nap with the bright sun coming through the windows or to journal/ be creative .  I noticed I focus the best in this room because it is so simple. There’s no clutter, nothing to clean up, put away, not too much to look at. It’s just very simple and quiet. I find this to be very helpful for my mind.

If you are struggling with meditation make sure you have a place that feels really simple and clean! 

  I hope you enjoy tidying up! This is the last official tidy Tuesday on the calendar, however I highly encourage you to keep this momentum going and continue to organize small spaces at a time until your home is just the way you like it.  You will find more joy, less stress and an overall sense of ease when your space is organized.  

It is been so fun to guide you all this month, I look forward to the rest of this week and continuing on with these traditions!  

Xoxo

carrie  

Surrender Saturday - Day 23 of 28 days to Bliss

Today I surrender to giving an F about what people think about me!!

This is something I’ve struggled with for many years in the past. Along the way of developing and growing into a woman that is strong in her essence; I realized the first thing that had to go was giving a shit about others opinions.

My favorite saying is; ‘Other people's opinion of me is none of my business!’

This is still a work in progress for me. Every day. Today I practice this even more as I am participating in the Minneapolis-St. Paul magazine fit festival. I am a regenerative detox specialist, a deep regenerative healer. My knowledge and skill set are extensive but against the grain… I’m against mainstream beliefs about protein, macro nutrients, taking pharmaceuticals or pills to solve everything… I’m about doing really hard work and getting the body to heal.

A lot of times people don’t want to hear my approach and I’m afraid of what people think about me…. I decided a long time ago that that shit would not serve me. I set my mantra to be “I only want to work with people that want to work with me”

In the health industry there’s a lot of pressure to conform to the masses… to get more followers, to somehow play a medium roll so you’re not the one that is so far out there… But that’s not who I am. it’s not the truth. I am kind of extreme. I am out there. I am a crazy powerhouse of a woman that believes with every bone in my body we all deserve limitless love and vitality. I know how to heal the body, I know how the body can regenerate, I have the knowledge and it would be a disservice to myself and to all of the lovely humans that decide to work with me if I kept that knowledge to myself just because I was afraid of what people think about me or my approach.

So today I set my intention that I attract the people that are ready to be open to true healing, I will remain strong in my essence. Fully unapologetic for my hippie, goofy, stiletto wearing, fruit and sun loving self and not give an F about what others think about me! Because God knows, I don’t have time for that shit! 

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Fresh Friday - Raw Asian cucumber noodle salad​ - Day 22 of 28 Days to Bliss

Raw Asian cucumber noodle salad

 Sauce:

3 tbsp filtered water

2 tbsp tahini (original recipe calls for sesame seed oil, but you can sub tahini if you are avoiding oil)

2 dates, pitted

1 medium garlic clove, peeled

1 tbsp fresh lime juice

1 inch fresh ginger root, peeled

2 tsp coconut aminos

1 teaspoon Dijon mustard (optional)

½ tsp salt

¼ tsp crushed red pepper flakes or ¼ tsp cayenne for a kick

Salad:

2 large cucumbers spiralized 

1 large carrot spiralized 

(Optional - ¼ cup loosely packed cilantro or mint leaves)

sesame seeds or everything seasoning sprinkled on top

lime wedges for garnish

 

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Throwout Thursday!! Day 21 of 28 Days to Bliss!

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Happy throw out Thursday!!! I have about six boxes Chuck full of clothing that are going to local homeless shelters😊. 

When you are ready to De-clutter and throw some things out; there are a couple things to keep in mind.

One: Only throw out was is damages or unusable. Always donate when you can! If you are donating; make sure the items are usable. Clean, washed and functional.

Two: Great places to donate are the Salvation Army and the Good Will. If you have the time and the patience; you could call your local homeless shelters and see if they can use clothing!! This can be such a blessing to many families in need. Other good places to donate clothing is a local church or check with the public schools in your area!

Happy de-cluttering and I hope it feels so good to gift all your excess stuff!

Wellness Wednesday! Day 20 of 28 Days to Bliss!!

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Today was another super snowy day in Minneapolis!!! This week for Wellness Wednesday I had a great meditation; played singing bowls with my sweet baby girl Mila and ate this amazing papaya smoothie bowl!

Fun Facts: Did you know that both papaya and pineapple contain bromelain?? Bromelain is an enzyme that adis in digestion, gut health, reduces swelling and inflammation, and helps with sinus/allergies! Next time you chop up a pineapple, make sure to juice that core!! Here is a short and unprofessional video my 9 year old help make to some juice ideas and benefits to your gut health! Link HERE.

Happy Wellness Wednesday!!!

Peace, Love & Fruit,

Carrie

Tidy Tuesday - Day 19

Hey moms, let’s face it. If you have a perfect home; you must have super powers and I want them.  As a busy mom of 4, entrepreneur, yoga teacher and healer; I can barely find time to take a bubble bath let alone keep everything perfect!  It often times feels just impossible to keep up with the house. Especially baby Mila’s room. How can something so tiny have so much stuff!?? 

Throughout our desire to tidy her room up and stay on top of the constant ever changing clothes that no longer fit… It feels like things have just gotten messier.  It may seem easier to let things go for a day or a week or so but once it piles up the task seems too overwhelming to conquer.

My words of advice. First, make sure that everything does have a home or a place that it belongs.  Second; each day set a timer for five minutes and diligently organize for just five simple minutes in one room. This will keep the clutter from building and overwhelming your physical space and brain space! 

Also, give yourself a break. You’re doing a great job. We really can’t do all of the things...

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Silent Sunday...Oh the lovely Benefits of Silence! Day 17 of 28 Days to Bliss!


“Silence is a source of great strength.” – Lao Tzu

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This picture is from a moment I spent on a nature walk in Jamaica. When my mind was quiet; I was able to captivate this beautiful sight. It makes me think of how much beauty we miss every day with the busy and loud lives we live… Here are some physiological benefits of silence!


  • Quiets the monkey mind

  • Lowers Blood pressure

  • Boost the body’s immune system.

  • Creates new cell growth int he brain. . A 2013 study found that two hours of silence could create new cells in the hippocampus region, a brain area linked to learning, remembering, and emotions.( Reference; article from Suzanne Kane)

  • Decrease stress by lowering blood cortisol levels and adrenaline. Silence decreases blood pressure and increases circulation to the brain.

  • Promote good hormone regulation and the interaction of bodily hormone-relate systems.

  • Prevent plaque formation in arteries.

How about that for a side of Silence on your Sunday!!???

Day 16- Surrender Saturday!! Surrender to the ideology of being stuck...

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Surrender Saturday!!! Day #16 of #28daystobliss!!!

For those of you that know me well; I am in my element and filled with exuberant joy when I am in a slower paced tropical climate, near the water and fruit trees….I feel at home. I feel inspired, awake, clear minded, peaceful, blissful…I see the vastness the powerful mother earth has to provide. I feel deeply connected to her, supported by her, I feel integrated with her beauty and strength.

For those of you that don’t know me as well; I am a mother of 4. I was married young and learned a ton from my mistakes but I made 2 beautiful children with my ex-husband. This is really the soul reason I live in Minneapolis, Minnesota. If it weren’t for them I would be galavanting somewhere around the globe. However, I WOULD NOT change it for a second. My children have molded me into this loving, responsible, deeply passionate woman that I am today. Not a day goes by I don’t look at my children and smile. They bring me so much joy. I firmly believe they came to teach me and keep my feet on the ground in this very state for a reason…. Until they are 18; I am rooted here in Minneapolis. Which brings me to todays Surrender Saturday. I surrender to my own belief system of being stuck.

Today I surrender to the feeling of being ‘stuck’. Stuck in a climate I don’t resonate with, stuck working day and night, feeling like I’m stuck in the period of time where I’m awaiting my true dreams. ...What’s stuck is my belief about my life. I believe that I belong by the sea, leading a retreat and healing center where I grow my own fruits trees and help people heal through herbs, plant medicine and emotional healing. This is my dream and WILL be my future. But just because I’m not there yes doesn’t mean I’m stuck. It means i’m building community, I’m transforming my life and others, I’m creating the groundwork for success, learning lessons of love and surrender... i’m preparing for my bliss!! I’m not actually stuck. The only thing stuck is my mind believing that until I achieve that, I am not fulfilling my purpose. My purpose is right here, right now. I choose to live AWAKE and break my own patterns and belief systems.

I’m free and fluid as a bird in the sky, my life is beautiful and flowing like the wind against the water. My opportunities are endless and open. I am open to my present and beautifully fluid life!



Day 15 - Fresh Friday Recipe Cauliflower Rice Aloo Gobi

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Cauliflower Rice Aloo Gobi

5 cups frozen cauliflower rice

2 cups frozen peas

1/2 onion chopped

4 garlic cloves

4 tbsp ginger chopped

1 can of coconut milk

4 tbsp indian curry powder

1 tsp himalayan salt

Pan fry onions, garlic and ginger until slightly brown; then add frozen cauliflower and peas. Stir until thawed; then add coconut milk and spices. Cook on low for a few minutes and then serve.

Throwout Thursday! Day 14 of 28 Days to Bliss! Clean your mind of Clutter!

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Throw out Thursday!!! They number 14 of #28daystobliss!! It also happens to be Loveday so today Choose to throw out insecurity and self-doubt and De-clutter the mind today!!!

Practice operating and living from a place of love for yourself and all beings! Clutter in your mind is just as heavy if not heavier than clutter in your home!. When you are able to declutter your mind and come from a place of clarity; you will find it easy to declutter your home! You will know what brings you joy and find it easy to let go of excess. This is something I work on every day! its a constant work in progress.

Practice daily mantras.

I choose a calm and peaceful mind.

I am surrounded by people and things that bring me joy.

I am free from excess and clutter. I keep my peac.

Sidenote I threw out a ton of stuff today! I conquered three drawers… The dreaded three junk drawers.😬 now junk free!!!

Happy decluttering! Namaste!

Carrie

Day 13 - Wellness Wednesday

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Happy Wellness Wednesday!! Day 13 of 28 to bliss. This picture has inspired me to head to my favorite Asian market and find all of the tropical goodies I can find today!
Winter can be so hard on your body and your mind. The lack of sunshine, the inability to put your feet on the ground definitely affects your emotional well-being. One of the largest parts that contribute to the winter blues is not eating enough fresh, live foods.

 Cooked foods once heated above 108° lose the majority of their digestive enzymes and about 70% of the nutrition. Thus becoming sad nutrient less dead food.  Consistent consumption of cooked foods, the increase of processed sugars, coffee etc.  is the large reason we are left feeling sad and sluggish. 

Do yourself a favor today and dish yourself up a giant bowl of high vibrational raw fruit goodness. You’re tummy and cells will thank you!😋

 

Day 12 - Tidy Tuesday

Todayfor Tidy TuesdayI spent my time organizing my office and clearing the energy. After a busy weekend at the healthy life expo; my office was a bit out of sorts. It feels  good to have everything back in its place and the energy set just perfectly🥰. I even got the majority of my client files organized and updated!  If you need some bodywork, abdominal therapy, energy work or nutrition help, my space is ready for you!☺️


Benefits of having your workspace organized is a more productive, creative and calm mind!  when everything is in its place, no clutter to be seen, you are able to access a more Zen mind state and tap in to your truly creative side and get out of the monkey mind!

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Day 11- Mantra Monday! Om Namah Shivia

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This picture reminds me of the ability to get quiet, to feel strong and honer my inner truth. To know my desires and see my future…the only missing link is me fully accepting myself and believing that I am enough. I can accomplish my wildest dreams in this lifetime! This mantra is truly helping me change my life!


Om Namah Shivia
I honor the divinity within me. 
I let go into the knowing that I am enough.
I am perfect and divine light. 
I love, honor and accept myself always.
Om Namah Shivia


This mantra is one of my favorites. I feel that true and full self acceptance is something we all struggle with. I highly encourage you to adopt this mantra and not only repeat it daily but also chant Om Namah Shivia and here is why….

Mantras are repetitive sounds used to penetrate the depths of the unconscious mind and adjust the vibration of all aspects of your being. Mantras are vibrated through chanting aloud, mental practice, or by listening to them.

Many studies show that silently repeating a single word to yourself quiets the frontal lobe which is responsible for your mind wondering, thinking about your past, or planning your future.

So get on with your bad self and start changing your unconscious mind!

love and light,

Carrie




Day 10 - Silent Sunday

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Today is silent Sunday. I love this photo and today I said in silence remembering this moment. How often are we really just quiet with our children, with ourselves? How often are we the observer instead of the controller? How often do we allow ourselves to just get quiet and absorb everything around us. The beauty of your children, the beauty of yourself, the beauty of the quiet, the beauty of the earth beneath your feet, the beautiful sunset, the vastness of the water… The indefiniteness and the impermanence of it all…I encourage you today to just get quiet.

Have a blissful and quiet Sunday!

Day 9 - Surrender Saturday

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Surrender to expectation

The conscious conception of sweet Mila Solei was no small feat but a giant triumph.  My husband and I began our journey to conceive in 2013. This journey was the beginning of many hardships and a lot of tears.  Throughout this journey I had a total of five miscarriages. It was evident there was something deeper. Through these losses I began some testing.  I was having many physical signs that things were off in my body. I was diagnosed with Hashimoto and showing the early onset of Lupus. As this was shocking news, I was determined to heal.  I did practically everything under the sun. Eastern and western healing modalities with little progress or answers. Eventually I found the right path and practitioner and began a regenerative detox journey.  After just 14 short weeks, my bloodwork came back clean. Showing no signs of autoimmune at all. My doctor was puzzled and resistant to my ability to heal what was medically considered ‘non-curable’. Although my bloodwork was clear, I knew I  had more work to do. I spent nearly 2 years in deep detoxification. My husband joined me on this journey. Not only to support me, but also to heal our bodies to prevent passing down any weaknesses. We learned so much about the importance of creating a healthy egg and healthy sperm. We quickly became committed to consciously conceiving a healthy, wanted and loved child.  This journey was difficult to say the least. It took every ounce of energy, commitment, focus and determination to get through the healing and regenerative detox protocol. As I detoxed my physical body, I quickly learned that I was also detoxing my emotional body. I am eternally grateful for this journey as I was able to truly heal on a physical and emotional level. I was able to create space in my mind, body and womb for a sweet baby to grow.  

In November of 2017 we found out we were pregnant. We were delighted of course.  Our delight turned into sorrow and fear in January. I received a call telling me that our test results came back abnormal.  We were told that our baby had a condition called triploidy and that 100% of these babies die intra-fetally or at birth. We were encouraged to terminate to save my body and heart from the trauma of carrying to term and watching her pass.  I practically fell to the floor when I heard this news. I was gasping for air in between bellowing cries. After I was able to process the information; we decided to proceed. There was a significant margin of error on this test that gave us hope.  I felt with every bone in my body that she was would arrive. Shortly after receiving this information we were informed that it could also be something called trisomy x and this condition has shown little to no effect on women at all. It was also possible that there was nothing wrong at all…

We continued the pregnancy in silence, feeling like a nervous wreck much of the time. All of the unknowns were so difficult.  I learned the beauty of surrender on this journey. The beauty of having no control and blindly following intuition. Stepping into the unknown and trusting that all would work out exactly as it was meant to in the end.  At 18 weeks we did an amniocentesis where they performed a fish test. This was simply to tell us whether she had triploidy or not. We were delighted when we were told she in fact did not have this terminal condition! We were asked if we wanted to spin out her skin cells and perform a test that would tell us had trisomy x. Together we decided that our daughter is perfect and whole just as she is.  We were bringing her in regardless. She is who she is and I am honored to be her vessel.

Mila Solei was born on 7-25-18 at 9:24am. She was 6lbs 8 oz of pure radiant beauty.  Her birth was yet another lesson of surrender. I anticipated, prepared and hoped for a completely natural birth.  Despite my preparation and desire, Mila was born via c-section. I listened to the cues Mila was sending, I felt so connected with her.  I asked her to give me a sign if she was not supposed to come out vaginally. She did just that! When I went in for induction, she had climbed even higher.  She was stationed at a -4 and my cervix was tucked behind her head. My doctor, midwife and doula were all in agreement that Mila needed to get out and not the way we had planned.  I spent time shedding my tears and grieving the desire for a natural and vaginal birth. I let my husband hold me as I embraced the sorrow I was experiencing. I tuned in to Mila and suddenly felt calm.  I knew this is what she needed. The surgery was a success and Mila was on my chest within minutes. She greeted me with her big brave blue eyes. Never have I experienced so much relief than in that moment.  To see her face, touch her soft skin, feel her love and this unspeakable bond we shared.

To my surprise, she was quickly swept away due to fluid in her lungs.  We were later told this is pretty common for c-section, it was just so unexpected.  She was whisked off into the NICU while I was in recovery from surgery. My heart ached so deeply when I couldn't be with her.  I was finally able to be with her later that evening. She was hooked up to a feeding tube, oxygen mask, heart monitors and an IV.  It was heart wrenching to see her tiny little body experiencing such an intense arrival. Despite everything she was experiencing, she was such a beautiful and content baby.  The moment I was wheeled in and said “Mila, Momma’s here” she turned her head and looked for me. All the fear, trauma, sadness and stress just melted away. The moment I saw her I knew she was divine perfection.  She was here for a purpose. Something big, something we cannot even comprehend. Yes she chose me as her mama, she chose me maybe because she knew I would love and hold space for her just as she is; or maybe because  I would be open to her teachings. Surrender, love, light, trust, intuition, and acceptance. These are the lessons of sweet Mila Solei. She continues to warm our hearts and everyone she meets. She is happy, healthy, smart, and clearly a thriving baby.  I can feel the power and deep content nature that she holds. We are deeply bonded and blessed parents. I am eternally grateful to be her mama.

I share this story with the intention help women around the world love on themselves. To help them heal old wounds and shift the mindset that surrounds the terrible word “infertility”.  To change the judgement we put upon ourselves when we experience a loss. To take the shame out of having a baby with some ‘abnormality’. Most of all to offer a voice for women to share their story.  We don’t need to suffer in silence or keep our pregnancies quiet until we are in the ‘safe zone’. If a woman is pregnant, she should be able to share that if she desires and if she loses that pregnancy, she should definitely be able to voice her sorrow and seek love. Secrets become poison in our bodies.  This is why I share my story. To free the pain, to allow it to transform and become something beautiful.  I genuinely hope that my story can encourage women attempting conception to trust the process and listen to the cues being given by the body.  Sometimes we are able to heal what may be causing our struggle with conception. Although this is not always the case; I truly believe all women that have struggled with conception have the right to grieve, feel broken, scream, and cry until their heart's content.  No one can truly understand the exact emotions a woman holds with the inability to conceive or a loss, no matter when the loss. With each loss I experienced more profound growth than I could ever have imagined.  I learned patience, trust, determination, commitment, surrender, love, acceptance, non-attachment and contentment. It was a long, emotional road but I am stronger, wiser, more loving and a better healer. My sweet Mila has helped change me. She has taught me surrender over and over since day one. Let go of expectation, let go of the idea you have control, except what is and you will be free from suffering!  I hope her story can help heal many others. Free your mind, speak your truth, love yourself, release expectation!